2019; It's a wrap!

Well, it's kinda fortunate for me to update this blog this year. And yeahh, 2019 is on its end. 

I must say, this year is a year with a mix of emotions but mostly it is filled with me being alone. 

The highlight of this year is me pursuing my degree, yeay!

Well I just started my degree recently and currently I am on my 2nd (read 4th) semester. This should be my study week but me being me, let's procrastinate as much as we can. 

My degree life was totally different from my previous diploma life. Suddenly, I lost my friends. Physically, they are still there, being my housemates but things are not the same as before which lead me to feel alone most of the time. 

But thankfully, there is Hafizi who comes home every weekend just for me, literally. My housemates kinda talk about me being out every weekend. Just to make thing clear, all I have there is only Hafizi. Things are complicated, don't want to discuss this further.

In term of studying, degree isn't different much as to diploma. It's kinda same but surely you need to be independent a lot. Yeah, just that. Up to till point, frankly typing I haven't feel the joy of my degree life yet except for exploring Puncak Alam every weekend with Hafizi. 

And a lesson I learnt from this year after reflecting myself just now, there is always a room for you to change no matter how bad your past is. Anything that happened in the past, took it as a lesson. Be a better person in the new year. Everything shall pass.  

I guess I have to post the highlight of my every year here so I can read and take a look at it when I'm older. 

Truthfully,

 22 years old me.

21st : His Edition

That night on my birthday, he did wish me. A simple wish but I did appreciate it. It was our second time celebrating my birthday together. Well not really together but virtually together? After having some parties with my friends, he called and we talked for a little while. 

He asked me on how to visit UiTM. Honestly typing, I was expecting him to come to see me there since we haven't meet for 6 months. Half a year we didn't meet each other and I was hoping too much to see him. But he said, he was merely asking me how and I shouldn't hope too much since we knew and we have to understand on how hard it is to see each other. It was disappointing but whether I like it or not, I have to face the fact that seeing each other is impossible at the time being. 

The next morning, we had a little conversation through dm and I asked him again to come over. He never said no to it but he kept saying we'll see how. His 'we'll see how' actually putting me on a high hope to see him but at last he said he couldn't. Only God knew how disappointed I was that morning. I knew that we couldn't meet but I was still hoping for it. I admit it, it was a stupid of me. Since I was really disappointed plus overly sad, I who was in Mira and Tira's room at that time, went to my own room to let everything out. Have you ever feel so hopeless that you can't do anything? That was what I felt at that time. I do feel hopeless because I can't do anything to meet him. If only I was brave enough and if only I have the guts to go to his place, we wouldn't have to wait for this long. 

After calming myself for a while upstairs, I went back to their room to continue my study. No matter how hard it is, studying is my main focus and I shouldn't bother much on this matter. When the time comes, we will still meet. All we have to do is keep waiting for a miracle to come? Hahahahaha. So I studied as usual like I never cried that morning, like I was never disappointed over this matter.

While studying, his message came in. Yes, he have a different notification sound so that I know it is him. I heard it but I ignored it since I didn't want to be bothered by him for a while. He sent a voice note and I expected maybe he sent his singing of birthday song, so I let it slide. Waiting too long maybe for me to open the message, he called me. Without any hesitation, I picked it up so that he won't bother me studying anymore. Hello, I need to focus 😤

Guess what guyss?
" Hello awak, siap-siap sekarang saya dah on the way "

Wehh, from that serious face of studying, automatically I smiled as wide as the ocean. Dreams do come true right? A six months of waiting was finally worth it! It was such a waste to cry a river that morning 😂 If only you saw my face that time, only God knew how excited I was.

Seeing him after 6 months was one of my best 21st birthday present. Looking at his smile after a very long time was one of the greatest feeling. He did change a lot, physically. The person that I met 6 months before was a totally different person. Wow, I was impressed with his change. Can't deny that he became a little bit handsome? after a while. A little awkward I guess after a while not talking to each other, face to face but honestly I couldn't describe how much butterflies in my stomach at that time.

It was a short meeting but what more could I ask other than meeting him on my birthday? He did buy me a pair of shoes and treated me to a meal but I don't care much about the gifts, the meals. All I care was him, spending time with him before the next meeting, which I can say the next 6 months? So awak, if you are reading this, thank you 💓. I know that I had thanked you before but still another thank you won't hurt right? Yes, I admit it. You are the best. For now. Hehehehe.

21st : Friends' Edition

A year older, a year wiser huh? Yass, I turned 21st last month on the 3rd of July and I am glad that I have such a wonderful life for now, at least. For me, my 21st birthday was kind of unforgettable? I can say that. We were busy with our finals on those days but my friends were still managed to make a surprise for me. Well it was not really a surprise since they didn't know how to cover it up. Hahahaha.

That night on my birthday, we studied as usual in Mira and Tira's room. Before that, they said to me that they didn't have any plan to celebrate my birthday and they just wanted to have a samyang dinner that night for me. Well, I was okay since I don't celebrate birthday with my family after all and I never expect any celebration. 

While studying that night, Asyi (one of our friends) came to our room, out of sudden fully covered with his tudung and nice clothe. Usually she came there only with her pyjamas. I didn't know why and I didn't suspect anything at that time. Then suddenly, Atirah said she wanted to buy some cold water with Asyi before we had our dinner and I was like, okay? Then I just continue to study as usual with Emma and Mira. 

Long story short, Tira was going too long that I suspected something. Atirah was going to Jebat with only her slippers on? It was weird. Atirah never wore only slippers to Jebat. It was 9 o clock. as far as I remembered and honestly I was totally hungry and Atirah had not coming back yet. So I asked Emma to call her and asked her where she was and she said she was still buying the water? Oh God, what's taking her so loooooong?

And then, the birthday song came out. Awwww, I didn't know how to react at that time since nobody had done it to me before (#sadlife). There was no birthday cake but there was pitzaaaas. And ballooonsss. Hahahaha I was expecting helium balloons and there was only the normal balloons but it was okay at least there was balloons. hehehehe. It was great that night. Apart of having pizzas, we also had some instant noodles. It was not some but a lot actually, for ten people I stressed that. Hahahaha. And we had some karaoke and played some games. We managed to escape from studying that night 😉

And if you guys are reading this, yesss u guys laa who else were celebrating my birthday with me, thanks a lot even though the surprise was not going so well since I can smell it already and I put all the blames on Atirah as she was too obvious hahahaha. I love you guys and yassss you guys are the best 💋💓

A picture for memory?

Idola's Day Out

After two consecutive core papers this semester, we need to release our stress so badly that we decided to have a trip to Melaka, The Historical City.  Ohh, last semester we went to A Famosa Resort for our long exam gap. At least for this semester, we were out from Alor Gajah district. Since we are young and broke (not dumb k), we can't afford to go further than Melaka but maybe who knows we might go somewhere out of Melaka next semester? 

Okay let's just straight to the point since I know that I have been writing too much lately. Our first stop for breakfast was to Roti Canai Kayu Arang. Heee, not sure actually where it was but pretty sure it is located before Melaka Sentral if you are from Alor Gajah and it is on your left side of the road. Where? Just google it guys. 

Breakfast 🍴

It was our first time there and one of my friend, our driver, whose nickname is Melaka, said that the place is very crowded especially on weekends but since we went on weekday, there was not so much but still much people having breakfast there. The plain roti canai there was the best, I can guarantee you. It is soft and tender and it was so satisfying. The food price is also cheap as the plain roti canai only cost you 80 sen. I really recommend you to go there if you are on Melaka looking for a good breakfast.

Next, it is a compulsory place to visit if you are on Melaka, the A Famosa. Since I have been 'hiking' the place many time, there is nothing to excite me other than the scenery when you are on the top. Luckily that day was damp and lightly raining, so we didn't sweat much. We took pictures and then we went down to Bangunan Merah and more pictures were taken. The perk of having us was we took pictures too much that we had to stop at every place at least 10 minutes. Girls guys 💁

The scenery 💜

Later we continued our journey to Jonker Walk. We were looking for some Hokkaido ice cream and we got lost. What made it more unlucky was we found out that the place had been closed for a long time. Yeah, what a waste of energy looking for something that did not exist anymore but sokay, we had much fun along our walk across the street. There were many shops on your right and left and you just had to choose either to stop by or pass by the shops. Ohh, the street arts also excited us as it was the best place to take more and more selfies.

We had our lunch in Tapperz Cafe, if I am not mistaken and it was in Dataran Pahlawan Mall. The place serves western food and the price is also affordable for students like us. On our way back, we stopped by the guns and they were doing a dancing show featuring Sunmi Gashina. One of the Chinese uncle saw their dance and he had became a huge fan of Raihana 😂

Our next stop was to Mango Float Royale. I had been asking Saitama to bring me there but  he said that the place is full of his relatives and his neighbors that he was afraid gossip might spread all over the place. Fine then. At last, I managed to be there without him. Yasss, the mango float is the best out of other places.

And the last stop which was also the highlight of the day was to have Ikan Bakar. I don't remember what was the name of the place but it is located in Alai kot? It was a big feast for us and we enjoyed the food much as it costed us almost RM 300 but it was all worthy for 9 people.

The 12 hours (more than that actually) journey was a real excitement as it brought us closer. Ohh we rented an Exora which at first we were not really sure that we can fit in all nine there but we managed it guys. Looking forward for another day out 😆

Idola 👭

Saitama 🙆

Ohh it is not that anime Saitama. It is just my boy, nicknamed Saitama. Not really his nickname but he got his name since he shaved his head tapak satu. Suddenly I want to brag about him since we are on a happy phase right now. Hehehehe.

If you read my earliest entries of blog, I once wrote about my best friend that always gave me motivations, the one who checked on my TOEFL result, the person that encouraged me during my hardest time, yesss it was him. My best friend is now my boy. Hmm I guess boy is not really suitable for him since he is going to turn 21 this month. Yeah, he is old so does his look.

About his look huh? Honestly, as his girlfriend I would like to say that he is not that handsome. If you look at him pun, your reaction gonna be, why him? My best friend once asked me, why on earth you choose him? Like there is no other man in this big, wide, sphere world to choose. Desperate sangat ke? Auchhh, it was hurt 💔 Well, that is the main function of best friend kan? To hurt you. But sokay guys, at last she gave me her blessing since she knew that I am happy with him. For now. 

It was unexpected to get to know him since we never been in the same school. Ever. And to know a stranger from different school never pops up in my head. It all started during Form 4 when my primary school's friend gave my number to him and he texted me. At that time, Whatsapp and other social medias were not that famous. I remembered he texted me and he once told me about his father death. At that time I was like, so? Like we know each other but on the same time I did feel sympathy for him. Come on, I do have feeling. 

As on that time we were in relationship (HAHAHAHAHA) with other people, we rarely  contact each other. He was just my 'hai hai and bye bye' type of friend. But we started to get close at the end of Form 5, as we changed spotted questions for our SPM. I guess, it was when we started to contact regularly since on that time we both dah kena tinggal dengan partner. Ehhh yeke? Tahlaaa, he rarely talked about his past, so I am not really sure about it. So there goes our friendship.

I started to study in Ledang for my preparation to go to oversea (but at last tak pergi pun) and it was my very critical year over my 18 years of life. I don't remember why on the first place I looked for him whenever I was in difficulty. It was comfortable to talk to him actually even though he was not that really responsive but I don't know, I just felt comfortable with him. I once cried to him over my result and up until now, I still feel ashamed about it. What did I think on that day? Ooomaigod, I can't brain it. Jatuh air muka, jatuh reputasi 😂

What make me attracted to him despite his not-so-handsome look?
As he said, love needs no reason. So there is no reason to like him, I just do 😎
I guess maybe because of his concern during my hard time makes me realize about his importance. The way he cares about me, the way he treats me, his silly jokes and his immature personality are the reasons to like him. Banyak je lagi tapi malas laa nak taip 😂

We are on a long distance relationship. Not really long actually as we stay in a same state but it is really hard plus impossible to meet him regularly because of some unavoidable reasons. We only met three times last year, but it's okay as distance makes love fonder kan?

Ohh he studies in UIA taking Civil Law. I told you, it is a real disaster to have an argument with him as he is the one who always wants to win and he is also can't see you (especially me) more than him. He does annoy me sometimes but frankly writing, it is cute to see him to react all the way being unsatisfied with things. Yaaa, and he cannot comfort me if I am merajuk with him. That is his greatest weakness. But sokay, I am immune to it and I can comfort myself now. Wow, I am an independent girlfriend.

It was really unexpected to be with him but somehow I am very grateful to meet such a good friend and also partner like him. Don't worry guys, I am going to delete this post if I am breaking up with him but that is the last thing to be done if I have to.


💬 Check this out to read about our meetings and to know about his first impression on me on our  very first meeting 👉HERE👈

Persatuan Bahasa Melayu and The Monkey?

Episode : Ditabrak Anuar

In case you don't know what 'ditabrak' is, according to myKamus, 'ditabrak' is defined as being hit or getting crashed or having accident or anything else that have the same meaning with the meaning. You got it? Alright cool 😎

It all started when Mira and Tirah were assigned as games organizer for our very first event, Jalinan Kasih, Titian Kasih, something like that laa. The event was a collaboration of PBM with SK Tebong, Selandar if I am not mistaken to get to know Orang Asli students in the area. Actually the school is like a normal primary school but it has a minority of Orang Asli students.

Since they (Mira and Tirah) were assigned as the game organizer, Farah and Emma will always get clingy onto them since we don't actually had any work to bother about. Long story short, there was one night when the KP (Head of Project) saying something about who wanted to buy all the necessaries for the event and somehow Farah showed up and volunteering to it despite she didn't have any car or whatsoever.

As Farah had volunteered to buy all the things, there was no turning back man. They (Tirah, Mira, Emma) looked at me big small, big small at that time. Wanted it or not, they had to follow Farah no matter what. So we planned to go together and rent a car. Coincidentally, the night before the incident, Mr President showed up and said they wanted to follow us. What a bless 😊 At least there was someone that we could put our trust on. 

On the incident day, we went out at nine but as usual, Mr President was late. Next we had our breakfast at Bistro Alor Gajah, went to Cowboy, Econsave, looking for masjid as Mr President had to pray his Jumaat and buying plants before going back. And that was the end of our happy day.

On our way back to UiTM, 

BANGGGGG! 

Oh shit! Someone hit our small, rented, white Viva. Luckily it was only a small accident and the car was not really bad and the one who hit us? Ohh, he had a big, 9 years installment (I guess) silver Hyundai car. Since he had an imported car, his car was not affected at all. but our car? The bumper cracked a bit. 

Mr President with his shit-why-you-hit-the-car-now face took a look at the bumper and had a conversation with the Hyundai's driver named Anuar.

"Tapi bang, ni kereta sewa"

"Takpe dik, nanti adik pulangkan adik tak payah cakap pasal bumper tu. Ni abang bagi nombor, papehal nanti suruh pemilik kereta sewa call abang"

Haaa, like that laaa the conversation went through and the driver went to his work. His brain. Did he thought that the owner won't check the car after we returned it? Haihh, luckily he left us his phone number. 

Mr President drove the car with all the serabut-ness and the car actually gave out sound after being hit. So we decided to call the owner of the car and told her everything about the accident. Sakit juga laa telinga dengar the owner membebel about the police, getting sued bla bla bla bla. 

Long story short, we asked the owner to meet Anuar at his workplace to settle down this serabut-ness. After many hours of waiting for the owner since he got lost to get there, finally, we got a compensation of RM50. Yeah, Anuar just gave the note in front of his workplace with the owner as the witness only from far. Like what was the function to bring the owner? It was much easier to just gave us that money from the beginning?

Done with that, the owner brought us to a workshop and guess what guys? To fix the bumper just need a little effort and it was FREE OF CHARGE. At the time the amoi fixed it with a hit of a hammer, we were so stunned. Ohhh, just like that? Amazing. Well I guess that was our rezeki after all. 

In conclusion, we had McD with the money from the hit 🙆

To be honest, it was a bless to have Mr President to join us in buying the necessaries. I can't imagined if there were only us during the accident. We would not be able to act as cool as him. This incident actually had brought us closer, from a stranger to a friend and we even have Whatsapp group together. Thanks to Farah for volunteering if not, we wont be able to have this great memory 😎

💬 Guys, check out our first PBM meeting and the reason why we join the club  👉HERE👈

The Piggie, The Goat and The Monkey

Why all animals? Am I going to write about the zoo or are we learning about the sound of animals here?

A pig sounds hik hok, while a goat, mmmbekkk and a monkey? 

Ohohoh uuuu-aaaa-hihihihi (read in intonation of a monkey)

What's with all these animals?
I did not remember whose the one that came out with all these animals thingy but I guess it all started with Emma, a beautiful yet not having a beautiful attitude, retarded person. So eventually, all of us represents an animal. Emma as the piggie, Mira as the goat and Tirah as the monkey. Ohh there is another person, who is Asyi as the gorilla. Me? Well I am the Rapunzel :)

As Mira is requesting me to describe my friends on my next entry, so let's describe all these retarded animals in the zoo.

Disclaimer : I described this randomly. There is no ranking or whatsoever as I love them equally. 

Emma The Piggie 🐖

The very first friend in class. First impression? Hmm, fair, pretty, as soft as cotton. 

100th impression? I am speechless.

She is my closest competitor among us. To be honest, I cannot see her more than me especially in studies. In other thing, fine laaa she is much prettier than me but in studies, I am the one who is the prettiest. She is such a talkative person and she loves to share about her chaotic, noisy family. It was nice to listen to her stories as they gave  us some meaningful lessons in life mostly regarding to family matters. 

Frankly writing, she has a charm personality that makes people easily getting attached to her. She is friendly, kind and what not? Those are what people going to say if they know Emma by pass. But if you know her closely, a big NO man. She is not as what you just described. In fact, she is the most retarded person among us but somehow she is the one that brings the light? hmm that brings happiness with her annoying-ness.

Other than that, Emma is also known as the queen of selfie (muka lawa boleh laa sembang). Whenever she has a leisure time, she will spend it with a ton of selfies. Yeah, when she is bored in class also, selfie is a must. Before she started using her Oppo F5, just mentioned, whose phone never become her victim? It was a disaster to transfer all the pictures into laptop as the phone is full of only her selfies on the same angle and reaction.

In short, she is pretty but having a haram attitude. That's why she is called the piggie because she is haram.


Mira The Goat 🐐

Also known as Mira 3L = Lemah, Lembut, Lembab
First impression? Hmm, she looks like a religious person.

Well, she is. She is the most religious person among us. It doesn't mean that we are not religious enough but she is extra religious only by her way of dressing. Other than that, she is not. Mira is super clingy with Emma and sometimes we (me and Tirah) feel like watching a lesbian movie when they act geli-gelan together. 

Along with her nickname Mira 3L, she is a very slow person. How to explain her slowness huh? She is like very slow slow slow. Hahahahaha, tak, tipu je, She did very well in her study, no worries guys but in other things, yes she is super slow. She is the one who always getting bullied among us. Honestly, it is a real satisfaction to see her speechless in our arguments.

Despite all those not-so-bad descriptions, she is the most matured person among us. It's true when people said, age doesn't define maturity. All of them are younger than me but they act more maturely than an elder person like me. Sometimes I do feel like I am younger than them, Mira especially. But do I care? Age means nothing.

Mira has that motherly attitude that makes us feel like home. She is the one who will prepare our breakfast, cook our maggies, wash our dishes and she even pours drinks for us. It sounds more like a maid right? But sokay, Mira is okay with all that. She has a consideration according to section 2(d) of Contract Act 1950, under exception to general rule of section 26(b), consideration of past voluntarily act done. 😎


Tirah The Monkey 🐒

It is a hard thing to describe her but I'll try.
First impression? None.

Tirah is Mira's roommate. Okay done.😂

The K-poppers among us and she managed to attract the other two (Emma and Mira) to get into Kpop too. Luckily, I am still safe from all this but yesterday I just checked on Sunmi Gashina just because they crazily trying to copy the dance lately.

One thing I adore about her is her ability to study while watching drama. Reading law plus drama? Only Atirah can do that. On the outside, I can describe her as a tough (?) person  as she is the only daughter in her family, yeah she is a little bit rough but deep inside she is such a soft hearted girl that will cry while watching drama and after being brain-washed by Emma and Mira.

Tirah is also my bed mate. Every weekend, not really every, only when my roommates are going home (sometimes when my roommates are around also), I will stay at their room and yes, I sleep with her on the same bed since there were only two beds in the room. She is the alarm clock for us. We are highly dependent on her to wake up for subuh  especially on weekend. Atirah is late, so do us. So it is not a good thing for us when she is on her period.

No one dares to argue with her. When she said A, all of us will agree. She just have that firm personality that makes us not afraid but just hmm afraid to argue with her. If she said so, okay, that's it.

Ohhh Atirah also is my beauty consultant. Since she has the most flawless skin among us, I appointed her as my beauty consultant. She is the one that introduced me to Hermo, skincare products, lipstick color, sunblock and other things related to beauty with hope, I'll get as flawless as her.

Love story huh? I really love her love story even though they (the guy and her) are not a real lover yet but I do love their love storyline. It makes us feel like being on her place having the same flowery feelings. Awww, I kenot laaa.

💗💋💗💋

Our first meet was in front of Tun Hamzah's staircase on the first day of class. Well, I should say it was a historical meeting that brings us today. I once said to my boyfriend, if I had to choose him or my friends, I will choose them. Sorry but boyfriend can be looked for but real friends?

It is true that friends come and go but yeahh, they are my diploma's friends and I should appreciate them as much as I could since I might not find anybody else like them on the other part of the world. 

Take a guess of which one is them based on my description 😉

Best Semester So Far?

Apparently I had just finished my third semester a week ago. Heads up guys! It's already the third one which means, yeah there are only another two semesters to go through. And surely they are going to be tough plus challenging plus happier? Well, we'll see then.

Best semester so far huh? 

Well, I admit it for now. Third semester was a bless.

With good friends around, boyfriend, family, lecturers, what else?

I was having so much fun this semester and basically it was all because of my sick,crazy, mentally- retarded friends. If you followed my ig you must have known them. My ig was full of their stories, everyday. Yeah, there was not a single day went by without their faces. 

Why not?

Every single day, going to class with them, lunch with them, dinner with them, studying with them,  jogging with them (sometimes), sleeping with them, and don't be surprised. we also getting bathed together. Luckily there are only two showers in the toilet, if not, we were going to bath all four together. How clingy were we right?

The past two semesters, we were not this close, we were just this cloooose. Can you see the difference? Thanks to Tirah and Mira for being roommates, we spend much time together. Only then I realized, distance made us apart. Hahahaha tetiba. 

Ohh, we also participated in Persatuan Bahasa Melayu. 

Persatuan Bahasa Melayu? Accounting? NO correlation at all. Well, I did not remember whose idea it was but i think it was mine, I guess? Or Mira? Whose idea it was, there was no regret. At all. We enjoyed the club much. Since the president of the club is an accounting student, we mixed well in the club even though most of the members are Office Management's students and they looked unsatisfied when we were in that club, but who cares right? Later on if I have the mood, I'll write about our only activity, which was visiting Orang Asli's school and some of Atirah's love story.

And Idola's outing for this semester was to Jonker Walk plus having ikan bakar near my hometown. Like no other place to go? It had became a must-do outing for Idola every semester. No lah, just started in the second semester and hopefully it will continue until the last semester. Bukan apa, to strengthen the bond kan? Hehehe. About this Idola's outing also, I'll write on the next entry. Hopefully. :)

While I had just finished my third semester, my friends at my age had done their last semester of diploma. Sometimes, to look at them, honestly, I envied them. If I did well in the past, I might have done my diploma too. But don't worry, no regret guys. I was blessed with a lot of people that make me enjoyed my diploma's life. If I had my last semester today, I might not meet my friends and not enjoying my life as well as now. He is such a great planner. #emosi

Just an extra, I met my ex,  sekarang dah member daa and we had a cup of Milo ais plus nasi bujang just to catch up with each other's life. There was no point to not be friend since we were classmates once. So, we are good now. 

Okay then. Those were the highlights for this semester. Gonna write more soon. Maybe. 

1st Done

Yeayyyyy. Already done for one semester. Another four semesters to hit. What a long journey huhh. Pray me hard please.This semester ended so fast like there is no other tomorrow. Ye, tahu cliche tapi nak taip juga.

Aha, four months in Lendu was so great even though it was just my first semester. Well, can you imagine it was only my first semester and it had been very great, the next, next, next semesters also will be super awesome great, kan? 

I hope so.

I barely can believe it. The first time I stepped into Lendu, I had nobody. Just myself and also my dream to success. I literally had no one. I didn't know anyone there except me. I retype, NOBODY. 

My first thought there was, 

"How can I survive here"

"Ouh man. Most of them are younger than me"

"Will they accept me as their clique"

"It's okay laaa kot to be alone"

So I prepared myself to be alone. #foreverloner but who expects that my first thoughts were just thoughts. I got along with my roommates very well as well as my classmates. Everything was just fine and we had a great semester. 

I totally became not the old me. For those who really knows me before can compare myself before and after. The old me just a silent, passive person who love to stay silent and always silent and just talking whenever needed. Well, not that really silent but can be considered as a shy person.

But ever since I went to Lendu, I changed 180 degree as I am now a very talkative, happy go lucky person in my class. I don't even know why and how I can be like that but it's okay. I love myself now. I once told my friends how I was back then in school, how shy, silent person I was. 

They were like,

"Ah kau, membongak je lebih. Pe kejadah kau yang bising camnih, waktu sekolah senyap"

And I was, okay. I don't need your trust. HAHA. 

My old school friends also did notice it. They were like,

"Dulu kau tak macam ni"

Well, I guess, the environment changed me. Takpun maybe because I love Lendu much(?). Haha. No, I have become matured actually to think that I have to be outstanding to compete with the students by getting talkative = higher self confidence.   

Baca post ni pun rasa macam self confidence tinggi sangat macam semua puji diri sendiri jeh. Hehehe.

Apa-apa pun terima kasih kepada minah-minah bawah ni for everything. 

Current Life

I supposed to revise Business right now but then I don't have the mood. Since I'm home, the study mood fly far far away. It has been 4 months, maybe, I ignored this blog. Well, who care, right? There are lots of new things happen in these 4 months and I would like to share them here a little bit, in case you are curious with my life now :)

Well I started my study now. Yeayyy ! Guess where?

Here, ( I would love to put my campus picture but there is no attractive picture)

I hope to get into somewhere farther but then here am I, still in Melaka. Sokay lah, dekat dengan family kan. Hehe.

In short, I am now a Diploma in Accounting student, still in Part 1 and gonna be a dean's list award student soon. Malas actually nak taip panjang-panjang. For those yang macam curious Farah belajar mana sekarang, sihat ke tak, don't worry, I'm doing fine here :)

Here, some of pictures to show ~

So this is my happy-go-lucky classmates, yang 24 hours memekak dalam kelas. Well then, I am glad that I am not the only 19-year-old person there yet there is someone who is older than me. So, takde lah rasa awkward mana.

Ini geng 5 sahabat. We did all the things together and I am glad they accepted me as their friends without any doubt. (Later on I'll describe them one by one) They taught me a lot especially in accounting and they will lend me their shoulders when I need them. No word can describe how good they are to me.

She is my best roommate aka my best friend for life. Eh ? I spend most of my time with her especially during weekends. I really don't know how to describe her but I do adore her much. She is a masscommer and gonna move to Rembau next semester. Honestly, I can't imagine how my life will be if she is not there. (Semoga Qistina tak baca blog nih)

I do enjoy studying here. I have seen a lot of people, a lot of behaviors, good, bad, all of that. They actually teach me a lot of lessons and I am grateful to be sent here. Looking forward to much better things soon. 

p/s : yeah, my ex boyfriend the 'cinta anjingan' guy also study at the same place as me. What a coincidence kan? Semoga Farah akan terus tabah dengan semua ini.  

Hero Menang Kemudian

So I was called to share some motivation which I have hold into it since my upper secondary school. Back then on those years, I once almost failed in my Biology and I did cry very hard because I never get such that low mark. I was completely losing my motivation during those days. Luckily, there was my best friend, who I have known her since I was in Form 1 in Muar that always give me her support whenever I need her. Well, I have to admit too that she sometimes annoys me but really she has the purest heart which eventually can soften a hard-concrete-head girl like me. Haha.

She gave me this note which I still keep it until today. How sweet I am, right?

Yeah , I know that you can't read what was written on the note. Here I make it bigger for you.

Jika kau berasa lelah dan tidak berupaya,,, daripada usaha yang macam sia-sia,,

ALLAH tahu betapa keras kau dah berusaha.

Ketika kau sudah menangis sekian lama,, tapi hati masih terasa pedih,,

ALLAH dah hitung air matamu.

Jika kau fikir bahawa hidupmu sedang menunggu sesuatu, dan waktu bagai berlalu begitu sahaja..

ALLAH sedang menunggu bersama kamu.

Ketika kau fikir bahawa KAU DAH CUBA, sampai tak tahu nak buat apa lagi,,

ALLAH ada jawapannya.

Ketika semua jadi macam tak masuk akal dan engkau tertekan,

Hanya ALLAH dapat menenangkanmu..

Jika kau dapat lihat ada jejak-jejak harapan,,

ALLAH sedang berbisik padamu.

Ketika semua berjalan lancar dan kau terasa ingin bersyukur,

ALLAH telah memberi rahmat padamu.

Ketika sesuatu yang indah terjadi dan kau dipenuhi ketakjuban,

ALLAH tersenyum padamu.

KETIKA KAU MEMILIKI TUJUAN UNTUK DIPENUHI DAN MIMPI UNTUK DIGENAPI, ALLAH TELAH MEMBUKA MATAMU DAN MEMANGGIL-MANGGIL NAMAMU..

INGATLAH, DIMANA PUN KAU ATAU KEMANA PUN KAU MENGHADAP , ALLAH SWT MAHA MENDENGAR.

(gambar Ultraman)

Hero Menang Kemudian

The SWEETEST part of SUCCESS

is to FALL first :)

ALLAH tak bagi apa yang kita harap

Tapi ALLAH bagi apa yang kita perlu.

Di saat kita terluka, terseksa dan kecewa,,

Dia dia atas sana,,

Sedang merancang yang terbaik untuk KITA.

Created by tangan kayu,

(signature) (signature)

Whenever I read this , automatically myself will respond positively to believe on every plans that are created from Him. May you also get some motivations here. 

p/s: I typed exactly what she wrote on that note with the same amount of commas and other punctuation. 

Dah jatuh, bangun. Pernah tengok cerita superhero kan? Ultraman misalnya. Berkali dia jatuh sampai lampu dia berkelip-kelip warna merah , dia tak pernah putus asa. Akhirnya? Dia menang juga kan? Dia mungkin kalah pada awalnya tetapi kemenangan masih berpihak padanya setelah dia berusaha. 

Hero menang kemudian , baru menarik cerita. :D

Fun Ride

Actually I have tons of school work to be done but then I choose to write on my blog since I haven't update it for a long long long time. I guess you might miss me right? Ehhh, just admit it. It's okay. I understand . 

Fine, I am talking to myself like anyone ever bother to visit my blog. Hmmm. *sad 

Well I was too busy all these weeks till I don't have much time for myself, for the blog, for you. Hahaha. I was too lazy actually. Super duper triple lazy. Even to pick up the pen beside me I have to ask for help from my little brother who was far away in his room. Can you feel my laziness ?  

So I would like to share some of my experiences riding all the crazy stuffs in Times Square Theme Park. Just a bit of information, Times Square Theme Park is the largest indoor theme park in Malaysia, where it can be found in Berjaya Times Square. Can you imagine? A theme park in a shopping mall? 

While you are busy shopping, suddenly you hear people screaming frantically. 

Tak ke terbantut nak shopping? 

That was actually my first impression when my friends ask me to experience the theme park but most of the time, I was afraid. Hahaha. Why? To be honest, I am a person who really afraid of high. Furthermore, I also easily feel dizzy if something moving around frequently. 

I was travelling all the way from Muar to KL just to experience the crazy stuffs in the theme park and luckily they were not disappointing. After having our lunch, here we go! Let's experience the theme park. Yeahhh .

As we were just finished our lunch, my friend suggested us to ride the least dizzy ride, which my friend, herself called that ride "Ombak Rindu" as when you ride on it, you will feel the breeze, like you are on a ship. Haha. What a brilliant her , kan ? 

 

Oort's Express

Oort’s Express is capable of speeding up to 17 round per minute. So be sure to throw your hands up in the air as this whacky adrenaline junkie version of a traditional merry-go-round takes you for a speeding ride

Next we rode this thing. At first I resisted to ride on this as I already felt a great dizzy but then my friend forced me to as she said, it was a waste to not ride all the stuffs since I had already paid quite much to get in. 

 

Dizzy Izzy

Get Dizzy with Izzy on the Dizzy Izzy ride! A spinning, spider-like machine that calls for 40 passengers to join in on a spin of a lifetime.

Another great dizzy and I felt like vomiting luckily I was not. Next was this thing. As my friends understood that I can't stand more the spinning, they said that it was okay if I don't ride this thing.

 

DNA Mixer

A crazy gondola that loops forward & backwards while tilting from side to side. 21 test subjects are needed to be a part of Professor Cosmo's whacky experiments.

To see them on the gondola had actually freaked me out. 

Next to ease our dizziness, we try the bumper cars. Well, this was the ride that I enjoyed the most at that time. Finally, no spinning around. Haha.

Robo Crash

Always dreaming to be the fiendish villain in a car chase? Want to test your skills dodging other bumper cars? Here’s your chance to crash in to all of your friend’s ride in a safe & controlled environment. 

And this was the highlight of the day. The roller coaster. Yeayyyy. After that bumper car crashing, my fear to the roller coaster lost eventually like a magic. Wow.

Supersonic Odyssey

For those looking to prove their worth as a true blue adrenaline junkie, there is no better ride than the Supersonic Odyssey. It is Asia-Pacific's longest multiple-inverted roller coaster that is 800 meters long & runs at a top speed of 80KM/H.

Okay, I just knew that the speed reaches 80km/h. So fast. My friend recorded the time, which it took almost 2 minutes to finish the 800m road but frankly speaking, I didn't feel like 2 minutes. It happened just in a blink of an eyes.

And that was how I spent my weekend. Eheh. I do recommend you to experience all these. It's worth in your lifetime. Haha. Apa aku merepek ni. 

p/s: The italic one , I copied them from google. Thank you Mr. G :)

First Week

Finally it's a wrap for this week's school days . Usually I'll be going to sleep latest by 12 am but since this is weekend , there is no wrong for me to sleep a little bit late . Well , I am just enjoying my weekends while I can . Eheh . It was totally an exhausting week for me as I have started my work as a temporary teacher . As I am waiting for the universities intake , I bet it is worthy for me to experience a new thing . Kan ?

I had been ordered to replace a teacher who is on her labour leaves for likely three months . The teacher teaches Special Education (Pendidikan Khas) so I have to replace her on that class . Special Education is an education focusing on special students . Special students can be defined as students who have disabilities including those students who have mental disability , learning problems , emotions and behaviors disturbance , communication distraction (speaking and language) , deaf , blind or having a low sight , physical disabilities and also genius students . Okay , I translated this meaning exactly from  Malay wikipedia . Forgive me if you don't clear about that . Well , I am not that good in translating Malay to English . Eheh .

As I teach these special students , surely the obstacles faced are different from teaching normal students . I have to be more patience especially to endure with their behaviors . So , in that school , there are three classes of Special Education . A class for Year 1 and 2 , a class for Year 3 and the other class is for Year 5 . So far I haven't face any big problems from students who are in Year 3 and Year 5 as they had already grown up and can handle themselves greatly . This is opposite to Year 1 and 2 class . Even though there are only 7 students in that class , it feels like I am teaching 20 persons at that time . Well , can you imagine how chaotic is that ? No , I know you can't imagine it as you are not in my shoes . Hahahahahahaha .

I had met this one student , named Qalesya from Year 1 and 2 class . She looks normal but she have problem to focus in class . I was teaching only for a minute and she had already felt boring about that . To be clear , it is not I'm the one who can't teach but she is the one who can't focus too long . Trying to defend myself before you say something . Eheh . Okaylah , I have to admit that I can't teach very well as I am only an SPM leaver and I don't have any experience of teaching people . Yeah , I need to learn more . I know . Back to that Qalesya , she would find anything else to do after she feels boring on that learning . For example I am teaching Mathematics in that class , after a couple of minutes , she will get up and blabbering to herself . Yeah , she is talkative . A very talkative person . Wow , to handle her you will need a really big effort . However , even though she is that way , she appreciates her teachers very well . Every day , before she goes home , she will hug every single teachers in that class saying that she loves them . Awwww , so sweet kan ? I bet there is no normal students will do that to their teachers . So do I . If there is one , he/she really earns my respect .

There are lots more to be shared but then I had already felt sleepy .

It was tough yet a really interesting week . Just looking at their actions and also the way they tell a story surely can brighten up my day .

I am looking forward for the school to start soon :)

You Inspired Me

Before I start , here is something for you to think about

At first when I found this on Facebook , I was like 

" Is there anybody who wants to be like me ? "

  

It was quite long for me to think about this like I was thinking of a serious world's problem . Haha . Suddenly , there was a Whatsapp coming . It was from my junior , a long long time junior from my elementary school . Quite shocking kan how can we still keep in contact after many years passed by . As he is waiting for his SPM's result , he asked me for some advice to go through the college life . Welcome to the real world boy . Eheh . 

So I told him my story . How I went through my college life , the hardships , surrounding situation and also some tips to stay strong even though I am not that strong enough to endure all this . Hehehe . Well , we have to give a good support to our juniors so they can think positively and be brave to face all the possibilities in the future . How good am I , right ? 

I asked him to do his best on his college life . I also asked him to not be like me , who had left a year behind my batch mate . And his respond was quite shocking . At last he was the one who advice me back . Hahaha . 

What I want to bring up here is that ,  

Yeah , YOU ARE INSPIRING . 

No matter how small your deed , how small your success is , there is someone . there will always be someone who wants to be like you . It doesn't matter how many times you failed , how many times you had been rejected , the ways you resisted all that make them adore you . Your sisters , your brothers , your juniors , your cousins , there will be someone who wants to be just like you without you even realize it . 

Before you give up , think again . Someone is watching you dude . Don't disappoint him/her . 

Hey you , 

YOU INSPIRED ME :)

Great Love

So I was called to talk about this movie after I watched it yesterday as I think this movie is really worth to share . Before that , I am not a Bollywood or Hindustan fanatic . I barely watch this type of movie but after I watched Dilwale , this feeling to like Bollywood was growing slowly inside me like a watermelon spreading it root to the pole . Hahaha . What kind of analogy is this ?

Here is a little synopsis for this Bajrangi Bhaijaan movie . There is one adorable girl , a six-year-old girl , who is mute from Pakistan , named Syahida . One day , her mother brought her to India to cure her muteness . On their way to India , the train , which they rode was broken in the middle of the night . It was a silent night and all the passengers were sounded asleep when Syahida came down from the train to help a calf by the railway . To be short , she was left by the train and was separated from her mother . In India , she met this one guy who is very kind called Bhaijaan . Bhaijaan's future father in law didn't like stranger with different religion to stay with them so he asked Bhaijaan to bring that girl home to Pakistan . Pakistan and India had a little crisis at that time and it was really hard for Bhaijaan to bring Syahida home . There are lots of obstacles that Bhaijaan and a reporter went through to bring Syahida home to Pakistan . Did they succeed to bring Syahida home ?

Hahaha . Don't want to tell you much . Well , I am not a spoiler . You should watch by yourself .

From this movie I did learn a lot but I just want to focus on this one thing . LOVE . Why ? Well as we all know love is abstract . Every persons have their own way to express their love . We also have our own definition of this . From what I learnt from this movie , the love of Bhaijaan towards a little girl , Syahida was very rare . They were strangers , they had different religion , they were also from different nation but still because of love , Bhaijaan willed to face all the obstacles to bring Syahida home. And because of their love , the crisis between Pakistan and India was solved . Can you imagine ? A little girl and an honest guy managed to bring their nations to peace because of their love . What a very great love , isn't it ?

You should watch this and I guarantee that you will never regret it . Ouh yeaa , do bring tissues along with you while watching this because your tears will come out in no matter time . Enjoy :)