Wednesday 22 August 2018

21st : His Edition

That night on my birthday, he did wish me. A simple wish but I did appreciate it. It was our second time celebrating my birthday together. Well not really together but virtually together? After having some parties with my friends, he called and we talked for a little while. 

He asked me on how to visit UiTM. Honestly typing, I was expecting him to come to see me there since we haven't meet for 6 months. Half a year we didn't meet each other and I was hoping too much to see him. But he said, he was merely asking me how and I shouldn't hope too much since we knew and we have to understand on how hard it is to see each other. It was disappointing but whether I like it or not, I have to face the fact that seeing each other is impossible at the time being. 

The next morning, we had a little conversation through dm and I asked him again to come over. He never said no to it but he kept saying we'll see how. His 'we'll see how' actually putting me on a high hope to see him but at last he said he couldn't. Only God knew how disappointed I was that morning. I knew that we couldn't meet but I was still hoping for it. I admit it, it was a stupid of me. Since I was really disappointed plus overly sad, I who was in Mira and Tira's room at that time, went to my own room to let everything out. Have you ever feel so hopeless that you can't do anything? That was what I felt at that time. I do feel hopeless because I can't do anything to meet him. If only I was brave enough and if only I have the guts to go to his place, we wouldn't have to wait for this long. 

After calming myself for a while upstairs, I went back to their room to continue my study. No matter how hard it is, studying is my main focus and I shouldn't bother much on this matter. When the time comes, we will still meet. All we have to do is keep waiting for a miracle to come? Hahahahaha. So I studied as usual like I never cried that morning, like I was never disappointed over this matter.

While studying, his message came in. Yes, he have a different notification sound so that I know it is him. I heard it but I ignored it since I didn't want to be bothered by him for a while. He sent a voice note and I expected maybe he sent his singing of birthday song, so I let it slide. Waiting too long maybe for me to open the message, he called me. Without any hesitation, I picked it up so that he won't bother me studying anymore. Hello, I need to focus 😤

Guess what guyss?
" Hello awak, siap-siap sekarang saya dah on the way "

Wehh, from that serious face of studying, automatically I smiled as wide as the ocean. Dreams do come true right? A six months of waiting was finally worth it! It was such a waste to cry a river that morning 😂 If only you saw my face that time, only God knew how excited I was.

Seeing him after 6 months was one of my best 21st birthday present. Looking at his smile after a very long time was one of the greatest feeling. He did change a lot, physically. The person that I met 6 months before was a totally different person. Wow, I was impressed with his change. Can't deny that he became a little bit handsome? after a while. A little awkward I guess after a while not talking to each other, face to face but honestly I couldn't describe how much butterflies in my stomach at that time.

It was a short meeting but what more could I ask other than meeting him on my birthday? He did buy me a pair of shoes and treated me to a meal but I don't care much about the gifts, the meals. All I care was him, spending time with him before the next meeting, which I can say the next 6 months? So awak, if you are reading this, thank you 💓. I know that I had thanked you before but still another thank you won't hurt right? Yes, I admit it. You are the best. For now. Hehehehe.





Sunday 19 August 2018

21st : Friends' Edition

A year older, a year wiser huh? Yass, I turned 21st last month on the 3rd of July and I am glad that I have such a wonderful life for now, at least. For me, my 21st birthday was kind of unforgettable? I can say that. We were busy with our finals on those days but my friends were still managed to make a surprise for me. Well it was not really a surprise since they didn't know how to cover it up. Hahahaha.

That night on my birthday, we studied as usual in Mira and Tira's room. Before that, they said to me that they didn't have any plan to celebrate my birthday and they just wanted to have a samyang dinner that night for me. Well, I was okay since I don't celebrate birthday with my family after all and I never expect any celebration. 

While studying that night, Asyi (one of our friends) came to our room, out of sudden fully covered with his tudung and nice clothe. Usually she came there only with her pyjamas. I didn't know why and I didn't suspect anything at that time. Then suddenly, Atirah said she wanted to buy some cold water with Asyi before we had our dinner and I was like, okay? Then I just continue to study as usual with Emma and Mira. 

Long story short, Tira was going too long that I suspected something. Atirah was going to Jebat with only her slippers on? It was weird. Atirah never wore only slippers to Jebat. It was 9 o clock. as far as I remembered and honestly I was totally hungry and Atirah had not coming back yet. So I asked Emma to call her and asked her where she was and she said she was still buying the water? Oh God, what's taking her so loooooong?

And then, the birthday song came out. Awwww, I didn't know how to react at that time since nobody had done it to me before (#sadlife). There was no birthday cake but there was pitzaaaas. And ballooonsss. Hahahaha I was expecting helium balloons and there was only the normal balloons but it was okay at least there was balloons. hehehehe. It was great that night. Apart of having pizzas, we also had some instant noodles. It was not some but a lot actually, for ten people I stressed that. Hahahaha. And we had some karaoke and played some games. We managed to escape from studying that night 😉

And if you guys are reading this, yesss u guys laa who else were celebrating my birthday with me, thanks a lot even though the surprise was not going so well since I can smell it already and I put all the blames on Atirah as she was too obvious hahahaha. I love you guys and yassss you guys are the best 💋💓

A picture for memory?